fake friends suck

My best friend lives in Ohio. Which is far. I hadn't seen her in months and she finally got to come visit me on Thursday! I was so happy to see her. We can go months without seeing each other, but when we're together it's like nothing has changed, and I love it.

I've been thinking a lot about the friendships I have. I'm going to be moving away this year, and I'm not going to be seeing a lot of my friends every day like I do now. It makes me wonder who I'm actually going to stay friends with, and who I'll lose touch with. It sounds bad, but I'm not good at keeping in touch with people when I'm not around them. I know that I have some really good friends that will always be there for me, but when I think about it, there are some people I just don't care to have in my life.

I think about what makes someone a "friend." There are some people I consider friends, but I probably shouldn't. I have some friends that abuse our friendship. I have friends that act like they're my friend, but when it comes down to it, they aren't there for me. Some of those people are people that I thought I was really close with, but they've proved me wrong. I'm really good at giving second chances. And third chances. And fourth. But at what point do I just stop trying? And how do you tell someone you're done?

I complain to DJ about it a lot, and he always tells me that they aren't worth my time. That I shouldn't let it bother me. That at this point, I should expect it from these people. He's right. I don't need people in my life that are only going to cause me stress. I'm tired of having fake friends. I'm tired of people being my friend only when they need something. I'm tired of getting my hopes up thinking, "Okay, this time she'll change," and being disappointed. If someone can't take that time to text me back ever, or come see me when we live five minutes away, why should I be there when they need me?

What is a real friend? To me, a real friend is there for you as much as you're there for them. A real friend makes you laugh, makes your day better- not stresses you out or makes you sad. Sure, people aren't perfect. I'm sure I'm not always a great friend. But a real friend tries.

I'm so thankful for the friends I do have. The friends that are there for me and will be there for me even when I'm not living here for a while. I'm thankful for my amazing boyfriend who's also my best friend. I'm thankful for new friends like C Town and K Camp (who really need to get their asses to Tucson!).

what do you think makes a real friend?

i have two boyfriends

Yep, you read that right. I'm in a relationship with two people. You all know Handsome, and you know he's my world. But now I think it's time I introduce you to my other boyfriend, my roommate, Carlin.

Okay, she's obviously not actually my boyfriend, but lesbihonest here, she might as well be, and here's why:

we send each other flirty texts

and tweets. This is just one of the many because I couldn't go scrolling through 1,000 text messages to screenshot all of the flirty ones.

we make dinner together like every night
We plan our dinners around each other's schedules and we cook together almost every night. We made those quinoa stuffed peppers and we've been trying a lot of Pinteresty recipes.

we can't go more than an hour without seeing each other
It's bad. When we're at class all day were usually texting either about hanging out when we get home or about how much we miss each other

those are from her phone, she already had screen shots…typical

we both have hot boyfriends in the Air Force
Carlin recently started dating a guy SHE MET ON TINDER….but thats another story for another post. Anyway, he's in the Air Force and they're so cute and so perfect together and I'm obsessed with them. But its really awesome because it gives us something to bond over. It's nice having a friend who understands and is in the same situation as me (even though they see each other every day right now…..ugh jealous)

I third wheel with her and her real boyfriend like every day
I think I need like a life sized cutout of Dj or something so we can go on a "double date" because I third wheel way too much. But I love it and I don't want to share her so yolo

are they cute or what? PS this was me being a creeper.

we have cute nicknames for each other
We're the wind beneath each other's wings. Sometimes we sing to each other.

we support each other
When I need to go to the gym, she motivates me because she's so into working out. When I want In-N-Out, she goes with me. When she buys hot cheetos, I help her eat them. It's a great support system, you know?

It's funny, because when we first moved into our apartment in August, we barely talked. We didn't really know each other and I was a little afraid of her because sometimes she's a bitch. But not I love it and she's becoming one of my best friends. It's amazing how someone can become such a good friend so quickly, right?! Anyway, I'm trying to convince her to start a blog so stay tuned because you might see a little more of her around here ;)

Do you have a friendship like this? Tell me about your best friend!

my life in pictures

Not to be cliché, but I really think a picture is worth a thousand words. Nothing makes me happier than looking at old pictures and reminiscing. 

So, here's my life as told by pictures.

I have the most amazing friends a girl could ask for.

I'm at student at The University of Arizona

I love country music. It's all I listen to.

I have the most amazing man in my life. Read our story.

I love food. Like- a lot. :)