what's up this week

I have been waiting for this week for what seems like forever. I'm officially half way done with the semester. I get to see Handsome at the end of the week. Hallelujah. This time we spent apart (about two months) definitely went by faster than it ever has, but holy shit I miss him like crazy. Especially being around my roommate and her boyfriend. Seeing them and how happy they are makes me wish he was here even more. This semester is seriously flying by though. Usually I have a pretty rough time going two months without Dj. This time, I've been so busy I feel like winter break was just yesterday, which is amazing because its so much easier that way.

I'm a little bummed though, because I only get to be with him for about five days. Usually, we go a couple months without seeing each other and then spend at least a whole month together, so this is going to be the shortest time we get to spend being together. With the way his job is, there are only a few days that are over my spring break that he'll actually be home. I know that the time we do get to spend together is going to be amazing- it always is, but I'm already dreading this goodbye. I'm going to soak up all of the time I do have with him though, so the end of this week/beginning of next week I might be a little absent from Blogland. I will still have some scheduled posts, but I likely won't be returning emails or promoting or any of that stuff while I'm with him.

I'm a little worried about that though. Of course I'm going to choose time with my boyfriend over my blog, but I get nervous when I can't tend to the blog. Lately I feel like my readership has gone down. I'm not sure if its me, my content, or what, but I've felt a little disconnected from the rest of blogland. I know that it must partly be my fault, because my heart hasn't been into it as much lately. I know that it reflects in my blog. But I also don't know if thats the only reason. My blog grew so quickly in such a short time, but I feel like its not growing anymore and my readership might even be declining. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it just me? Am I doing something wrong? Something differently? I would love to hear from you on this. I write for me, but I also write for you. As much as this blog began as an online diary, it has become much more than that to me, and if I'm not producing content that my readers enjoy, what's the point?

Maybe I'm just being down on myself. Maybe I need a break. I'm not sure what it is, but I'm hoping that taking a couple days off and being with Handsome will get me back into the swing of things and I will be ready to go when I get back home next week!