2.26.2014

okay but what is this post even about

Today, my econ class was supposed to meet in a different classroom. I was walking around campus aimlessly because I had to clue where this building was, and I ended up missing class which I was obviously so sad about. This is really irrelevant to the story, but anyways while I was walking around I called Dj. (Have you noticed I use his name more than 'Handsome' now? Its so much quicker to type) He answered and sounded so happy. We talked about random shiz and I had the biggest smile on my face the whole time. Then I just had this huge realization. I was looking around at this beautiful campus, drinking the best iced soy chai latte ever, talking to my best friend on the phone. I realized how lucky I am and that I've been taking it for granted.

I've been a little down lately and I didn't even realize it until today, if that makes sense. I just had this overwhelming realization that I have it so good right now. Sure, I'm away from the one person who I really want to be with, but other than that, life is really perfect. I have someone who makes me the happiest girl in the world even though he's so far away, I have the best roommates, I have a Starbucks gold card (oops I'm addicted I had to throw that in there) and I go to a beautiful school…for free.

I don't know what my future holds, but I know it can only get better from here. I'm so young and I have so much of my life ahead of me. I can literally do anything, right? That's such a scary though. But its so exciting and comforting because I literally have no clue what I want to do. Right now I'm thinking I'll get my MBA, but last week I was going to get my PhD in Neuropsychology so we'll see how I feel next week. Maybe I'll want to be an astronaut or something. This year I'll graduate in December (fingers crossed), move in with my handsome boyfriend, GET A PUPPY, and drink a ton of Starbucks. How exciting is that?! I just have so much to look forward to and I'm so excited about it.

Where is this post even going? I literally have no clue. I've just been so out of it lately when it comes to blogging, and I felt like I needed to give you an update on where I'm at in my little scatterbrained head. I feel like I haven't even posted a decent post in like two weeks. I've been so busy and I haven't been motivated at all. But today I just felt better about everything. Including the blog. I've worked really hard to get it where it's at today. I've become so dedicated, and I can't stop that now. I'm so glad I have some time this week to settle down and get excited about blogging again. But just a warning, that might mean  a new design. Yolo. I think it'll help me get motivated to blog.

I only have about two weeks until I get to see Dj and I seriously can't wait. I've been in a funk the past couple of days. It always happens about a month and a half into us not seeing each other. I get so sad and I just want to jump on a plane and see him ASAP. But seriously, two weeks is nothing. I'm done feeling sorry for myself. My roommate has this new boyfriend (who's also in the Air Force) and they're so cute and perfect so I'm just living vicariously through them for the next two weeks. We want to go on a double date so I'm trying to get a life-size cardboard cutout of Dj or something so he can be there. Creepy? Probably.

So basically, you're welcome for a post about nothing except a big dump of my feelings. I'll get better at finding things to blog about, I promise. And if anyone knows where I can get that cutout let me know ;) Happy hump day!
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11 comments:

  1. I love when you have those moments when you realize how good you have it, especially when your feeling a bit down. That has been me lately and when I think about the future and what it may hold it makes me excited and boost my spirits. Sounds like you have a lot of great things headed your way!

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  2. Sometimes you just have to take a step back and realize how amazing things are. I do it all the time b/c we can get so caught up in the to-do lists, blogging, and routine of everyday life.

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  3. Pretty sure this post was going in the right direction...up!! It's always such a satisfying feeling when you are happy and content even for a minute!! You're totally right, 2 weeks is nothing, I hope it goes by fast for you.

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  4. Oh, girl, you KNOW I understand missing the person you love. Keep strong, chin up and know that these times are temporary :)

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  5. I know exactly how to feel. Before I saw My Guy for Valentine's Day it had been 6 weeks since the last time we saw each other and I just felt so depressed before he got here for like a week or two. It's so hard to deal with the distance sometimes but remember that you always have your friends and your blog friends as well that are going through the same thing. We are both counting down the days till we see our guys again, when are you going to see him?

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  6. I love when everything feels "right" and you finally realize it :)

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  9. I totally know what you mean about not realizing you're sad until you realize you're happy. It's a really weird feeling. We all go through those lulls and high peaks though, so can't wait for your new high! ;)

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  10. There is no greater feeling than knowing you'll be seeing the person you love and finally spending time with them!

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  11. I'm sure it can be hard being away from him! I'm glad you had a realization that life is good, but the best is yet to come!

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