thank god for all i missed because it led me here to this
My homeboy D-Ruck couldn't have said it any better. If you haven't heard the song This by Darius Rucker (aka the guy from Hootie and the Blowfish) you should listen! This song is really meaningful to me- it describes exactly how I feel. Here's just a little snippet of the song. (Did I just say snippet?)
For every stoplight I didn't make Every chance I did or I didn't take All the nights I went too far All the girls that broke my heart All the doors that I had to close All the things I knew but I didn't know Thank God for all I missed Cause it led me here to This
There have been so many events in my life that I've been upset or disappointed about. So many things that haven't turned out the way I expected or wanted. I think a lot of people would call them regrets. But I hate to think of it that way. As I look back at all of the things that I once thought were terrible, things I cried over, got mad over, and felt like a failure for, I now realize that they all have happened to get me to the point I am at today. I believe everything happens for a reason.
When I was in high school, everything came so easy to me. I never studied for tests, I rarely had trouble with homework, I passed all of my classes, which were honors, with an A, and I was top 1% of my class. So naturally, I thought college would be easy too. I had dreams of going to Washington University in St. Louis, which is an amazing school. One of the best in the country. It's rigorous academically, and very hard to get into. I was sure that was it for me- it was either Wash U or U of A (which I did not want to attend). I decided not to apply early decision because then I would be in contract and I would have to attend there- which scared me. So I applied by the normal deadline, and after a few months of nerve racking email checks, I found out I was wait-listed. Then I found out they didn't have room to take people from the wait list that year. Needless to say, I was devastated. I really did not want to go to U of A, but now I had no choice.
Looking back, I'm so glad I did not go to school in St. Louis. I wouldn't have the amazing friends I have now, I would've been drowning in school work, and I probably wouldn't be with Handsome, because we wouldn't have had the opportunities to hang out when he comes home.
Freshman year wouldn't have been the same without these lovely ladies. :)
Also in high school, I was in an awful relationship...for three and a half years. I didn't trust the guy, we fought constantly, and he treated me like shit. He was controlling and I never went out with friends or got to hang out with other people. Why did I stay with him? No clue. I was young and stupid. Sometimes I think about it and I get mad that I let him take away my high school years. But then again, if I hadn't been in that relationship, I wouldn't have gained the self respect I have now. I would probably still have low standards. I might not have the amazing man in my life that I have now. And we wouldn't have been able to take sexy pictures like this..
I could go on and on. But thinking of all of the hardships that led to something great makes it so much easier to get through all of my struggles right now. I considered leaving the U of A and finishing my degree online at ASU so I could go live with Handsome. However, I'm a semester too late because my scholarship won't transfer. So I'm taking that as a sign that it's meant to be for me to finish school here in Tucson and then move to Montana. I keep changing my major, and its pretty stressful- mostly because it's too late to change it to early childhood education, which is really what I want to do. But I found out that I can have my degree in whatever and then get my masters through ASU online while I live with Handsome- so now I know that all of the frustration over finding the right major has led me to the right place.
So, if you're going through a tough time, just remember- everything happens for a reason. You'll end up where you're supposed to be.